[after a few more feet (hello ramen noodles, goodbye ramen noodles), Rin runs out of steam, and allows for his boyfriend to catch up with him. he's bailed on this conversation before because he was unsure, and now he's bailing because he's mad, but in each case -- he's left Makoto in the dark. he can't be angry at him, for drawing his own conclusions]

...I don't think we're embarrassing. You don't get it.

[which sounds cutting, but he goes on to clarify]

After my dad died --

[words that don't belong in a supermarket, for sure (but then, didn't they talk about Australia for the first time, in the Happy Tomato?)]

-- things changed with us. You're not just, a brother, anymore, after something like that.

[too young, he had to step up in ways he never had before -- and even knowing better, then failed to continue doing so, lost without his dad in his own ways]

I've been really selfish with her. I haven't, done anything, right. I don't want to make her feel like... she's unwanted, or, getting in the way, or just along for the ride. I don't know if I'd be able to, be myself around you, with her around, too. [and with an aching kind of truthfulness] She got one thing right, I guess. I'm, kind of, uncomfortable, with it.