It isn't that I don't try, it's just... I don't know.

[He doesn't intend to sound so unsure of his motivation for dating Toudou. At this point there no way he could ever think of their arrangement with any regret. It's just still surprisingly new, and no matter what, everything he does with him needs to matter. This relationship is so important that he worries over the most ridiculous things, even when there's nothing to worry about at all.]

I want to make sure Toudou's happy while we're here. I want this to really count. Before we go back home.

[Before things go back to the way they were.]